Just knowing how hectic this week will be overwhelms me and it hasn’t even began. There is just so much for me to complete within a short time frame. If only the day was greater than 24 hours, I’m sure I’d benefit from that more than ever. I guess I can only use my time wisely as from now on. Although, I need to take a step back and reconsider what my priorities are because I’m not even sure anymore. I need to find that balance again and focus, I seem to be lost in the chaos.
I’m so over the feeling, I’m so over you and to be honest whatever man, I ain’t gonna let it affect me anymore because it seriously ain’t worth my time. It’s just useless.
it is meant to happen, it will. I’m not gonna force you on me, I’ll just let it take it’s place naturally. If anything, I would want it to happen willingly and because, you mutually wanted it too.
We were up high, up in the sky where we dare to only dream of flying. My eyes fixed on you alone, just as my heart craves you and only you. I’m right where I want to be, here with you, just you and I, us, captured in a moment. Isolated from the world, it doesn’t slow down for us. Time is priceless. The city lights shimmered across the horizon scattered here and there, shining brightly just as the stars twinkle in the dark night where wishes are hoped and dreamed of. That one day or someday sooner or later, the possible is inevitable. Just as this moment unfolds, I’ve been longing for this and time has taken its place. Reality is certain that we we’re meant to be.
I don’t need you to spoil me, I may want a few things. Although, honestly I’d rather you spoil me with love. Your love. I want to feel loved on my birthday. I’d prefer that. I don’t want another lonely day especially on my day. Make it different, make this one memorable, make my wish come true. ♥
It’s not that I don’t want to, trust me if you knew, I really do want to get along with her. I honestly do. But I’m scared. I’m scared maybe what if, what if she doesn’t like me or accepts me. That thought scares me. It holds me back and I’m frighten because at the end of the day, I want exactly what you want. I want to get along with her, I want to be able to communicate with her, without any fears and simply feel comfortable. On the other hand, I could be simply drowning myself with negative thoughts and emotions, getting caught up in the worst scenario.
I just .. don’t want to stuff it up. Why? Because these feelings I have towards you isn’t just nothing, or something that will just fade. It’s not a game to me. I know that eventually I’ll open up, it’ll just take time just as building relationships with people, it takes time.
I don’t want to expect anything from you as I don’t know when it’ll be official or if it’ll ever happen. Taking each day as it comes is leading us closer to where we shall be in the future, whether we’re together or not. Though in this moment in time, I’m happy with you.