You need to lose at times to embrace every ounce of the feeling that comes with winning. You need to be told ‘no’ at times to be able to appreciate what is right and just. You’re never going to understand your true stregth let alone know your limits if winning was all that you had to show, if you were never given a chance to acknowledge the lessons from your defeat.
This isn’t how it’s suppose to be nor was this suppose to happen yet it’s something that I have to get use to as the rapid change is something that was out of my power of reach to change, there was no choice. It was that simple. I had to accept it and move on. Though, it is something that I have gotten to accept eventually. Yes I am slowing accepting reality and all the bs it comes with it. I guess, my own denial hasn’t helped the situation. I may feel and look okay however, that’s not enough because it’s not going to minimize the chances or change anything. It’s a burden on my shoulders, and it’s weighing me down. I can’t keep ignoring it as if it’s not there, as if it’s not making an impact because it visibly shows, and eventually I’ll be drowning in the future consequences if I don’t do something about it now. If I don’t make the change sooner than later, I know what results I’ll be left suffering in the end.
